Hi, i have a problem.. i am engaged now for 5...

Hi, i have a problem.. i am engaged now for 5 years. Long distance relationship for 6 years and he is the perfect man and i will never find anyone like him.. but there is a guy with me at work that i found very attractive nothing else at the time.. I found myself going and registering myself in the gym he goes to and we started talking and this crush really occupied me and i felt bad and broke off my engagement. My fiance doesnt live in dubai and i dont want to leave dubai and move to Egypt and get married there. He doesnt make much effort to come here and he knows how much i dont want to leave my home. So all that just built up and i ended things and i got closer to the other guy who is very attractive and i started getting attached to him but my ex kept trying and this other guy kept giving me mixed signals. I knew there was no way i would get married to the guy thats with me at work but i was in this other relationship since i was 20 and that just made me feel free. I kept feeling rejected from the guy with me at work but i was stil very attracted for some reason.. time passed and i saw my fiance again and we got back and now wer back but all i do is think about the other guy and try to be wherever he is all the time and i dont like this i want to forget about it and just spend the rest of my life with my fiance who i know is the best for me. The other guy knows i like him and we decided we will be just friends but i cant help it and i hate/ love this feeling. Even though i know this guy im with now loves me more than he loves himself. I don’t know what to do I really dont. Its really occupying my life and i have so many mixed feelings and i hating it so much. Everytime someone says ur getting married soon i get this pain in my gut and stomach but i dont know anything anymore.